Battle Group Stands Up = I Break Down

No matter how hard I try to come to terms with it all I just can't seem to grasp the concept of what is to come. Some days I do a pretty good job at fooling myself that everything is going to be okay and then other days, like today, the reality sets in. Today was understandable why my stress levels were up, the battle group standing up and all (for those who don't understand it means that the soldiers in 1RCR are preparing to deploy to Afghanistan this coming spring).
I just don't know how I am going to manage, especially once this baby arrives. My husband may be leaving in the spring but he still has a lot of uncertain hours between now and then including 5 weeks in California for training. Tomorrow he is sleeping out in the field and won't be home until Wednesday night. Again, thanks for the notice! Got to love how the military is so considerate of the families. I understand that they are soldiers and all but seriously they are people too, not robots!
I just hate how we can't plan absolutely anything in advanced right now due to the fact that some higher up may decided last minute not to send them home that night or the following day. I get that they need to train at night and during the day etc but can't you organize your schedule for the week so that the rest of us can too?
I worry that everything I am trying to work towards right now is going to crumble; I hate the instability. I may just have to cut back on my sons sports to ensure that his education doesn't suffer due to a lack of time in the evenings to get some homework done! Most people say there just aren't enough hours in a day, but I think there just aren't enough hours in an evening!!! I just feel like once this baby gets here things are going to be extremely rough, rougher than originally expected. I guess the stress wouldn't feel so big if I had a stronger support system in the area but both of our families are too far away to really help out, which really sucks!
I feel pretty bad for my husband and I'm trying to hide my stress from him (good thing he doesn't go online much!), but I know he can see through me. We both wish that all of this was going on at a different time, like we had originally thought it would be when we decided to get pregnant, but this is the way the cards were dealt so I guess we are going to have to deal with it.

Are we there yet?

You would think with today's technology that is available to children for long car rides they wouldn't be so tempted to say "Are we there yet?" "How much longer?" "The dog keeps breathing on me!", but I guess that is just wishful thinking! I will give my son credit that he doesn't say he needs to stop and go pee every five minutes, currently that phrase belongs to me! I'm just not sure what is worse right now, the pain in my back from sitting in the car or the pain in my head from the moans and groans from the back seat!
The baby shower this weekend went very well which is helping me ease my mind now that we have more of the essentials that we need for the arrival of the baby. My son appeared to have a great time taking on his first role as a big brother by opening up the gifts for me! My husband's family did a fantastic job planning and organizing the event for me, I am very lucky to have married into such a kind loving family.
Now that I am home and finally getting a chance to relax I am starting to feel like a bit of a hypocrite, I am feeling like my son does on the long drive. All I find myself thinking and saying is "Am I in labor yet?" "Is it my due date yet?" "The baby won't stop kicking me!". Maybe I should start feeling sorry for my husband since he is the one who has to listen to me and our son moan and groan... remember, I said maybe!