I'm Back & Bummed Out

Haven't written in a while due to sickness (bad cold) and craziness over the holidays. Now the craziness has slowed right down, and my reality is too real for me right now. My husband left for California two nights ago for his workup training for Afghanistan. He will not be home until the end of February sometime, still waiting on an exact date. I hate that I don't know when to expect him and I hate that the military thinks it is ok to do that to the families. My son has a birthday coming up and I would like to post pone his party until Morgan gets home but I can't really set anything up until I know when that is going to be. The joys...
When Morgan went away for two months in the summer I really didn't take it as hard as I am taking it now. I'm not really sure why that is considering I was pregnant then and you would think I would have been more emotional. Watching Morgan say goodbye to the kids broke my heart. Liam made him a picture that said "I Miss You" and "I Love You" and drew a picture of all of us together, Morgan is carrying the picture in his attack vest along with a pair of the baby's socks, a note from me a picture of the family.
While we were out shopping before Morgan left we decided to get something for the baby to help him remember his Daddy while he is away. We bought him a little baby einstein photo album, it is also a teether. I filled it with pictures of Morgan (it holds 6 pictures) and I plan on taking it everywhere the baby goes! The baby is still pretty young but by the time his Daddy is in Afghanistan the baby will be able to pick the album up on his own. I've also been using one of Morgans shirts as a blanket for the baby, it probably comforts me more than the baby at this point but oh well. I guess I need to do what I can to help me stay sane.