To Be Or Not To Be... That Is Still The Question

Tour... I'm sure some people are still wondering... Well so am I. My husband goes back into work on Monday so we hope to find something out then. At this point I don't have a clue what the military has planned for him. He may be put into the 10 percent pool which means that he would be "on call" if they needed someone to up and go overseas in a moments notice or maybe he will still be going in May (which we haven't heard anything so it doesn't seem too likely right now but I guess with the military you never know) or maybe nothing?
I've asked my husband how he feels about this... not what he thinks other people think he should feel but what he feels (I find he needs to separate the two sometimes since he always seems to be too considerate of other people's feelings rather than actually saying what he feels). Of course like I knew part of him wants to go, he wants to be there... He is a soldier through and through. On the other hand he is a Daddy and that is the most important thing in the world to him. Missing time with your baby is something that money just can't buy and it isn't like he hasn't done his time there... 3 tours and all. But there is always that big part of him that feels he needs to be there, to help his "brothers" out. He does not like the idea of staying behind but he also doesn't like the idea of leaving us behind. I guess that is a lose-lose battle for him... and for me.
Of course I want my husband to be home with me and the kids but I could never make the choice for him. He needs to figure out what he needs to do... either way I'll be here... probably planning more things for him to renovate lol. But it is not a choice I feel is in my power or should be in my power. Sure I give an opinion... a positive and negative to each side to be fair. I guess my way of thinking is that whatever choice he makes I don't want him being able to blame me for making the choice for him if it was a wrong one.
Well maybe Monday will tell a story of what is to come... Whatever happens my support is where it belongs.